2.28.2007

23:35

sentosa-ed today.
darling paid for all my expenses!!.
except the ice-cream and poker cards.
ahha.
got cut.
so many times.
sian-ed.
like 3 times la.
but many wounds.
more then 3.
ugly-ness.
wore my friction-less slips with my working clothes all the way to vivo.
and lindi got red arms.
like her shirt.
and many bruises.
ugly hands.
she's so sad.
because of that.
late people came in one by one.
jeff.
karmen.
aloy, henry and shaun.
left early.
for work.
damn tired.
damn lethargic.
but still went.
hahah.
walked in the rain.
my blouse went transparent.
almost.
fell asleep on the bus while on the way to work.
then.
ya.
finished work.
am home now.
tired.
warm shower.
damn comfortable.
walked alot today too.
hahha.
at harbourfront station.
walked 2 rounds.
then to level 2 of vivo.
back to basement 2.
then to level 3.
then to sentosa station.
darling cut my leg wif his nails.
then monorail-ed to siloso.
walk.
then tram.
then walk.
then raining beach touch rugby.
then fountain-ed.
saw weiliang.
everyone on that same tram as him knows his name now.
hahahah.
then the guys went for soccer.
then walked to 7-11 and the toilet.
for ice-cream.
and poker cards.
and i wanted to use the toilet.
hahah.
went back to the pavilion.
played blackjack.
damn cold.
the wind came in faster.
seeked 7-11 for comfort.
got cut again.
while trying to piggyback jieping.
went 7-11 for warm comfortaing food.
had cup noodles.
and itsy bites here and there.
hahaha.
pics now!!
hahah.

jieping.

poor lindi. (look at all those marks.)

trying to get a group shot.

still trying.

still trying.
will upload the good one when i get it.
hahah.

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{beautiful lady}

2.27.2007

23:17

cut my hair.
damn short.
people say it's ugly.
people say it's nice.
so i don't really know.
went shopping today too.
shopped like alot.
got.
a pouch.
a shirt.
a pair of pumps.
a bag.
yipee!!
i got my bag!!
hhaha.
met karmen.
n sammie.
n huz.
n wini.
then i lost my piggie.
sad point for today.
sadness la.
low points of today:
lost my piggie.
people said that my hair is ugly.

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{beautiful lady}

2.26.2007

23:51

bored.

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{beautiful lady}

22:21

movie marathon-ed.
at my house.
with aloy.
huz.
sammie.
lindi.
and me.
hee.
watched.
the maid.
deuce bigalow american gigolo.
shutter.
screamed.
i will get ear plugs for you people the next time.
i promise.
juz don't forbid me from watching horror.
hee
it's like an addiction.
so.
please.
you people know it's tough to not have your temptations and addictions fulfilled.

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{beautiful lady}

13:40

yeahs!
my mum is buying me a wallet!
so happy.
hee.
hahahahha.
i'm going crazy!!
hahahah.

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{beautiful lady}

2.25.2007

23:56

think i'm juz misinterpreting your signs.
you just ain't interested.
i'm going to give up.
it's better to be single.
then be all attached and unavailable.
i prefer being free.
not bounded by restrictions.

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{beautiful lady}

23:12

damn tired.
it feels as though the distance between us is getting further and further.
although we've done many stuff.
don't know whether we have the same feelings.
afraid we won't be together forever.
many doubts.
what if you aren't the one.
but it seems as though we have a connection.
but you've seem as though you're avoiding me.
so it freaks me out.
cause you know so much that no one that i know of about that same period knows about me.
cause we seem to have gone through bad times together.
where we won't talk to each other.
but it really confuses me.
your attitude towards me.
i don't really know what is it that you want.
you are so temperamental.
so unknown.
so unpredictable.
i'm trying my best to forget you.
in case it's a misinterpretation on my part.
so.
i really don't know what is it that i want.

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{beautiful lady}

2.24.2007

23:41

please.
if you people wish to quarrel.
please wait till i'm not within a 100 meter radius of you people.
cause i don't want to get involved.
and i don't want to be the messenger.
can't you people just talk things out peacefully.

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{beautiful lady}

14:19

got a job!!.
damn.
i'm so happy.
moolah!!
hahaha.
more moolah!!.
hahha.
shopping!!.
yeah!!.

i'm a happy person now.
C:

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{beautiful lady}

2.23.2007

23:05

i feel neglected.
):

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{beautiful lady}

19:54

GL training.
had fun.
ran bare-footed at first.
cause i was lazy to run with shoes.
then they forced us to stop.
cause.
they wanted us to change to shoes.
i didn't wear socks at first.
then.
3 blister came up.
saddening.
like blister.
damn pain.
and i have a dinner tomorrow.
how am i supposed to wear my heels tomorrow.
sian.
miniature race.
ran.
screamed.
drank.
ran.
sat out.
played.
had fun.
fell.
wobbly knees.
disgusting oranges.
bread.
falling.
endurance-ing.
then water activities.
got splashed.
bang-ed.
many stuff.
hee.
camwhor-ed.
hee.
at kap.
hahaha.

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{beautiful lady}

19:09

damn.
i so want to quit.
but i don't know what is keeping me in.
think it's his pride i'm thinking of that's why i'm holding back.
and suffering there.
don't really want to stay.
i stayed and continued all because of her.
really am thinking of quitting.
but i don't want to be a quitter.
and become a coward.
but but.
i don't want to do something i don't want to do.
i don't really like to sacrifice myself to do stuff for others unwillingly.
should i really think only of him.
and not myself.
sometimes.
i really wonder what is holding me back.
maybe it's because of respect.
maybe it's because of my fear towards him.
maybe it's because he's like so violent towards me.
the strength he uses is what he deemed as not painful, but it actually is very painful.
like bruises will appear.
anyway.
i don't know whether i should quit.
should i??

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{beautiful lady}

01:10

am i a flirt?

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{beautiful lady}

01:03

guess what.
i'm so bored today.
at night.
i'm playing neopets.
hahaha.
no one msn-ed me.
sian.

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{beautiful lady}

2.22.2007

23:45

looked at this blog dated 22 February 2007.
cause.
it means alot.
but i've thought about this kind of stuff before.
afraid of rejection.
cause it will be very hard to face each other if both of us knew of it.
like after a broken relationship.
it would be awkward to face each other whenever they bump into each other.
so.
i rather wait.
and see.
until we have a mutual standing.
or something.

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{beautiful lady}

22:18

tbd-ed.
quite fun.
waited almost to an hour for wini and lindi.
saw mark and gang when i reached.
and then they left.
wini and lindi was still not here.
so.
hmm.
luckily.
soon leng and kelvin was there to keep me company.
drank 2 packs of milk.
heee.
milk!!
so yum yum.
hee.
anyways.
those two.
betray sports camp.
go foc.
haix.
sports camp is like so much funner.
dunno why people will choose foc.
it's like boring.
hahhaha.
ice-breaker games.
then water.
then home-ed.
but i didn't.
took cab with wini to marina square.
find shi hui.
then ate at genki.
then shopped for tanks.
ate ice cream.
cab-bed home.
hee.

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{beautiful lady}

2.21.2007

22:48

will someone please give me the stuff in my wishlist.??
please.
cause they cost so much.
and i don't realy have a deep pocket.
please.
i'm like broke.
and sadness.
so please.
please.

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{beautiful lady}

22:23

people look at this.
and please go here.
and support.

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{beautiful lady}

01:07

why do they all seem to like to open my door.
and leave it open.
even though i close it.
i prefer staying in my room.
behind closed doors.
cause.
i believe in my own privacy.
you people can close your doors to me.
and i can't.
what kind of logic is that.
it's unfair.
i like my door closed.
not opened.
so.
just mind your own business.
stay out of my hair.
and keep out.
damn.

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{beautiful lady}

00:08

SHOPPING FUND!!
this is a fund.
for princess boo boo.
she needs money.
people.
contribution is dependent on contributors mood.
any amount is welcomed.
please please.
please.
or else.
her wardrobe will remain the same for years to come.
for all her years in polytechnic.
it won't change.
please.
contribute.
money is needed desperately.

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{beautiful lady}

2.20.2007

23:47

tip to others:
please don't open your red packets while painting nails.
it's very risky.
too risky.!

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{beautiful lady}

14:41

damn fat.
all the new year goodies is adding to my weight.
i should totally cut down on these stuff.
but they're so irresistible.
like.
yum yum.
*rubs tummy*.
lip smacking.
someone.
help curb my temptation.
please.

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{beautiful lady}

14:25

slept my full 10 hours today,
wow!!.
like finally.
but it ain't able to replenish those that i lost the past few weeks.
sleep is important.

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{beautiful lady}

14:23

is this really me?

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{beautiful lady}

02:22

if i change everytime someone ain't happy about me, then i'll be perfect for everyone.
everyone will like me.
but then.
i won't be special.
with my unique characteristics.
i'll be hypocritical.
then.
not everyone will like me.
i'm contradicting myself here.
but though.
i don't know why i need to change.
i only hear complains from you.
and you only.
so far.
no one else.
that were as hurtful as yours'.
so.
it's ur opinion only.
or maybe, i just have a problem with you.

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{beautiful lady}

02:14

wouldn't want to get into a relationship.
cause i'm afraid it's infatuation.
what if.
after awhile.
like a few weeks.
i feel that actually.
we don't really have that connection.
and i decided to end it.
i'm afraid of hurting your feelings.
afraid to leave bad memories.
afraid to take risks.
afraid to lose.
afraid to take chances.
afraid of everything.

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{beautiful lady}

02:07

sometimes.
technology can be bad.
one won't know whether you are cheating.
since.
on messenger.
you can be flirting with many people.
but maybe.
every single one of them assumes that you're the only special one flirting happens on.
so.
you won't even know.
when you could be like attached.
and yet still flirting as a single.

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{beautiful lady}

00:35

finished my roll of tissue again.
sian.
sneezed till my chest and shoulder hurts.
damn.
can't breathe hard.
can't do big actions.
even walking hurts.
damn.
think i will finish up this box of tissue today too.
if i don't sleep till late.
help!!
my shoulder hurts!!.
like damn!!.
help!!.
i can't tolerate the pain!!!
damn.

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{beautiful lady}

2.19.2007

23:07

CNY is tiring.
maybe we can just get the red packets.
but not gamble.
or house visit.
damn tired.
like slept 4 hours for the past 2 days.
and not enough for the past few weeks.
never meet my daily requirement of 10 hours in weeks.
sian-zation.
like.
i so want to stay home.
all cooped up in my room.
facing my laptop 24/7.
or to just meet my friends.
going out with the family is damn hurting to my feelings.
they just keep criticising.
as though i have no feelings.
like i can't even get into a bad mood.
i'll be like in deep shit.
so.
what's the use of visiting them if they don't make you feel comfortable.
non-stop.
every year.
pick and pick and pick.
damn.
i'm doing so just to appease her.
and to not let her face be thrown.
so.
i'm suffering just for her.
it's so tiring.
to hear criticises everytime we meet up.
damn.

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{beautiful lady}

2.17.2007

17:08

i so want to stay home.
i prefer reunion dinner here.
not anywhere else.
though the packing up is really a chore.
but it's so much more fun.
getting blander by each year.
how i hope my granny is here.

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{beautiful lady}

03:12

once.
i was telling my mum.
"ma, i think i'm either supposed to be born into a rich family, or i will become a rich tai-tai."
hhaha.
damn funny right.
cause.
i like to sleep.
i shop non-stop.
i eat only good food.
i have weird cravings at different times.
which means there must be a cook at home.
able to cook for me at different times.
i like to be pampered.
like real pampered.
i'm damn lazy.
i'm very clingy.
i cling 24/7.
everyone says that.
hahaah.
i don't think so.
this is how i express my love to everyone.
by being clingy.
if i don't cling to you.
it means.
i have something against you.
which means.
i don't like you.
ahhaha.
so.
take note.
my friends.

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{beautiful lady}

03:09

i think my bags lead a very sad life.
cause.
once i get a new one.
i totally will not care about the old ones.
and then.
they will be kept in the corner.
being left alone.
collecting all the dust.
what if i grow up to be like that too.
then that will be very saddening.
i hope i won't be like that.

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{beautiful lady}

2.16.2007

23:10

she and he fought again.
like non-stop.
always because of me.
it all started because of me.
like all the time.
every single time.
why am i always the one who started the trouble.
now she's left the house.
with the car.
and he's talking so happily on the phone.
like nothing has happened.
but i feel so guilty.
why did i have to start that topic.
why??
damn me.
stupid me.
i am so stupid.
sometimes.
i should just let them decide what i should do.
and not always take the initiative to start all the squibbles between them.

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{beautiful lady}

23:01

was in town just now.
with bernice.
and guess what i saw!!!
a lady.
peeing at the bus stop.
damn.
she does it like no one is looking.
and please.
it's orchard road.
there is no empty bus -stops at that time!!
why can't you just dash to the nearest toilet!!
TANGS is just behind.!!
omg!!
i was like.
damn.
whoever's wearing long pants better not step on it.
damn.
i wish you luck.
think it's dried up now.
hahah.
but it's still uber disgusting.
like.
bleahs.
hahha.

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{beautiful lady}

14:25

damn she's naggy.
non-stop.
since 10 am.
i so want to sleep.
hahha.

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{beautiful lady}

11:22

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If you've never eaten while crying.
you don't know what life taste like.
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i've tried that so many times.
eating while crying.

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{beautiful lady}

2.15.2007

21:14

PINEAPPLE TARTS!!!!
i want.
she don't let me eat.
sad-ness.
i want to eat.
i'm like so hungry now.

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{beautiful lady}

17:38

saw this line while watching Lunch Queen.
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If you want to win a woman's heart, don't shower her with affection.
Rather, just kiss her forcibly and she's yours.

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guys out there.
reading this post.
do the right thing!.
hahahha.

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{beautiful lady}

16:58

if you people really want to know what went on yesterday.
click on that link. (this one)
(or this one).
hahha.
how i wish i can post like them.
hahah.

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{beautiful lady}

15:12

saw this on aloy's blog.
so saddening.
i'm a camwhore.
hahah.
but i couldn't think of other words to describe myself.
since i take so many pictures.
like everyday.
hahahha.

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{beautiful lady}

2.14.2007

10:38

went shopping today!!.
hhahahha.
went all the way to tampines mall.
just to accompany karmen.
she needed to exchange some clothes.
that her younger brother couldn't fit into.
hahha.
then lunch-ed.
took more pictures.
went down to town.
me, lindi and karmen received roses from sammie and huz.
so sweet la.
they suddenly disappeared just to get us roses.
hahah.
wanted to reject it.
cause i really don't like people wasting money on me.
but neeways.
they got it already.
and we have flowers!!.
hahahah.
town-ed.
supposed to watch movie.
in the end.
full!!.
no seats.
so we went to pool.
and sammie left.
mimi and huz left too.
like left me and chris and karmen only.
haha.
so we shopped.
from OG centrepoint.
then to heeren.
then to far east.
hahhaa.
bought some stuff.
left.
saw hongyun.
my CGL!!!.
hahah.
out with a group of friends too.
haha.
so sadden.
no valentine this year.
wish you better luck next year!!.
am home now.
resting my tired feet.
worn them out for two continuous days.
poor legs.
both of you can rest tomorrow.
hahah.
i don't think i'll be out at all.

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{beautiful lady}

2.13.2007

22:55

engmech paper.
left the last 3 questions blank.
hahaha.
then shopping.
dragged sammie away from his friends.
me holding tightly on the left.
and huz on the right.
ahaha.
sammie said huz grip is so tight.
that he can't feel the blood flow.
hahaha.
then dragged him all the way to town.
hahhaa
then waited for 2 hours for the queens.
hhaha.
walked from far east to orchard mrt.
then to wisma.
then to taka.
ice-cream-ed.
and auntie anne's-ed.
then walk back to far east.
waited till 1.30 for them to finally reach.
hahaha.
lunch-ed at BK.
like finally!!.
food!!.
hahah.
walked around in far east for shoes.
for lindi.
she so troublesome!!.
ahhaha
in the end no need for shoes.
went to bugis.
just bought a belt to really make her whole set whole.
hahaha.
then we walked around for stuff for CNY.
like i saw so many nice skirts.
ain't of my size.
either it's too big.
or too small.
but still in the end.
got 2 skirts.
and a top.
hahaha.
still need one more bottom.
most prolly shorts.
or jeans.
or skirt.
so many possibilities.
and one more top.
and a pair of slips.
maybe.
still thinking.
pumps.
or slips.
then it'll be complete.
*claps claps*

movie-ing tomorrow.
more shopping.
hahaha.
excitement.

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{beautiful lady}

2.12.2007

22:22

finished one whole roll of toilet roll for my nose.
damn.
non-stop sneezing.
damn sian.
how the hell am i supposed to study like this.
like i can't even study properly.
or should i just sleep for a while.
and wake up when i'm more rested.
and more energised.
don't really know.
damn shag.

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{beautiful lady}

20:56

hope i get well soon.
even though i walked in the rain twice today.
but maybe because of the rain.
i'll get well.
hhaha.
let's hope so.
am so weak now.
no mood to study at all.
sian.
how??
help!!
engmech is like making no sense to me at all.

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{beautiful lady}

20:33

ate alot today.
like dinner first.
with lam, sean and peiyi.
damn full.
went home.
she bought dinner.
like wow!!.
everytime she buys dinner.
i would have already eaten.
damn.
so damn full now.
like bloated.
cause she wasn't happy that i wouldn't eat the stuff she bought.
so i just forced it down my throat.
feel like barfing.
like i stuff-ed so much stuff into my body within 3 hours.
like 1 packet of rice.
1/2 plate of hokkien mee.
1/2 plate of carrot cake.
1 frog leg.
1 glass of sugar cane with lemon.
2 pieces of glutinous rice cakes.
etc.
etc.
damn full.
damn.
not feeling well today already.
adding all of these up.
will i be to weak to handle tomorrow's paper??
sian.
1 last paper.
till freedom.

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{beautiful lady}