5.31.2006

22:13

i cant stand u.
y e hell r u so selfish.
u juz keep doing all these strupid stuff to hurt urself.
but u tell it to others like it's my fault n nvr urs.
i noe both of us r partially at fault.
but when u speak to others.
u juz make it sound like it's all mine.
y e hell do u have such a bad temper.
i only asked u y muz u scream n u get mad at me e whole damn day.
wat did i do to deserve tis.
y e hell r u such a freak.
n when he comes back.
n u tell him.
both of u will say it's my fault.
n he will cut my pocket money again.
muz u always punish me vis him.
y cant u juz do it urself like in e past.
now u juz rely on him n ur parents to get back at me.
cant u juz act ur age.
i'm like so nt like u.
am i even urs.
u always make it sound like im not urs.
maybe it's true.
i should get my life checked.
i could be calling e wrong person mama.
cant u juz grow up.
how old r u already.
u r acting like a totally spoilt young brat of 5 yrs old.
when will u ever think.
like i dun scream like a mad woman.
i speak to u in a monotonous voice.
n u speak to me in a voice of such high volume.
it could totally cause many many great winds.
n kill many many pple.
cant u juz stop thinking tt everybody gt nothing to do at all.
i still have work n tutorials.
u juz stay at home all day long n play games n when i come home u juz keep calling my name like i have nothing to do at all.
i have tonnes of stuff to do.
i'm nt very clever.

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{beautiful lady}

20:28

why the hell do i need 4 more closets when i already have 4 in my room already.

u juz keep getting more and more storage space when none of us needs it.

juz dun get so much.

n u keep saying we spend alot of ur money when it's u who spend hundreds of dollars on such unwanted stuff.

n because of tt.

i have to clear away some of my own stuff.

why go to such trouble.

i totally cannot understand u.

u freaking wanna communicate with me.

but u dun ever keep ur cool.

u juz flare up so damn easily.

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{beautiful lady}

17:49

i realised tt im really dumb.

very very dumb.

how dumb can anyone like me get.

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{beautiful lady}

15:54

i rmbered wat i wanted to blog already.

i aso need someone to help me in EECAD.

which im aso very terrible in.

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{beautiful lady}

15:51

was about to blog.

but while waiting for e com to start up.

i forgot everything.

stupid me.

short-term memory.

how dumb can i get.

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{beautiful lady}

11:50

not feeling well.

y is my body of such weak constitution.

i like to play so much.

but im nt healthy.

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{beautiful lady}

10:36

i need pple to teach me ELTECH n EG1.

im like dying in these classes.

common test is like nxt week.

n i dun even understand e teacher at all.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

cannot do it.

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{beautiful lady}

5.30.2006

22:12

i hate those bloddy mosquitoes.

y do they keep biting me.

but they nvr bite e pple ard me.

damn it.

so itchy.

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{beautiful lady}

18:01

i miss home-cooked food.
it's been like yrs since i've eaten home cooked food.
everyday it's either instant noodles.
or bought home food.
it's like totalliy msg laden.
n unhealthy.
i need healthy food.
or i'll die soon.
someone.
cook for me!!!
food is so damn important to me.
mummmmmmmmmmmmmm

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{beautiful lady}

16:21

i realised tt i make frens wif many clever pple.

who get like distinctions n high marks.

i feel so stupid near them.

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{beautiful lady}

14:18

i wanna go crazy.

n high.

up up into e sky!!!

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{beautiful lady}

11:10

ROLL DOWN THE HILL!!

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{beautiful lady}

10:57

crap talking is so damn fun.

my frens keep saying i can talk nonsense.

n watever tt comes out of my mouth sounds like.

blah.

really??

i'm nt very sure.

i think i talk a lot of senses.

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{beautiful lady}

10:48

saw joycee yesterday.

so happy.

i told her everything tt happened since sch started.

i found out we were studying in e same block.

block 50.

but i didnt see her much at all.

i'm still thinking y??

she said it's cos im a lazy person n take e lift n she's nt lazy n takes e stairs instead.

so maybe tt y??

den i aso saw winging n bernice n yishan.

yeah.

claps claps.

i miss them so much la.

it's like i see them once in a very long long while.

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{beautiful lady}

5.29.2006

22:33

i camp was so fun.

although i had no internet access at all.

i missed messenger.

i missed chatting for hours online n on e phone.

n i didnt get a tan at all.

thought i would at least get tan.

but e skin is still so yellow.

like faded.

so ugly.

i screamed alot.

n pple asked me when i'll lose my voice.

cos i screamed at almost everything.

every telematch n game will have something tt im afraid of.

like balloons popping n ball games.

then e confidence walk.

n the nite walk.

arghhhhh.

flourry water.

bleahs.

disgusting la.

then e nite walk.

so scary.

i'm like e only one screamed uber loudly n everyone heard.

then everyone laughed at me.

pple aso asked wat aint im afraid of.

i said chocolates!!

then they were like. ermmmmmmm

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{beautiful lady}

5.26.2006

11:11

wat do u prefer??

boxers or briefs??

tell me when u see me online.

or leave a tag.

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{beautiful lady}

5.25.2006

22:00

down

with

flu

cough

sore throat

headache

puking.

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{beautiful lady}

21:53

im sick n i puked juz now.

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{beautiful lady}

21:23

sick sick sick

sick sick sick sick

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{beautiful lady}

20:31

pple keep saying my laughter is infectious.

once i start laughing.

everyone will laugh too.

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{beautiful lady}

20:24

i camp tmr!!

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{beautiful lady}

19:41

SW was so funny today.

i was made to do a forfeit.

rolling down e hill!!

it was so fun.

i wanna do it somemore.

but there doesnt seem to have any one who wans to do it wif me.

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{beautiful lady}

5.24.2006

23:27

if every male tt i speak to or have any contact wif is my boyfriend.

den how many boats am i standing on now la.

e mother is absurb.

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{beautiful lady}

21:43

i feel like doing something so guilty.

so damn guilty tt everyone will condemn me.

tt i will have to get imprisonment.

maybe death penalty.

or watever.

life suddenly feels as though it needs entertainment like tis.

as though other stuff r not as entertaining.

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{beautiful lady}

21:40

boxers or briefs??

boxers.!!

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{beautiful lady}

21:30

i am a very horrible person.

i feel so.

selfish.

horrible.

evil.

disgusting.

retarded.

stupid.

idiotic.

ugly.

fat.

stalker.

disrespectful.

naughty.

bad.

loud.

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{beautiful lady}

16:32

i suddenly feel as though it's e end of e world.

life feels as though there is no more meaning.

y dun i feel happy at all.

i feel down.

i feel tired.

life is like e end of a road.

n there is none left for me to continue.

i feel as though i can end my life now.

i feel as though life has nothing left to be happy about.

it feels as though life can no longer surprise me with anything.

it feels as though life can no longer give me any hope to live on.

i can juz jump off e building now n be totally happy abt it.

y has life suddenly take such a big turn.

it feels as though tis aint me at all.

life is turning dull.

dull.

very very very dull.

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{beautiful lady}

5.22.2006

23:30

there was a very huge flying cockroach juz now.

n i keep screaming n screaming when it fly.

n my mama thought im crazy.

it was like.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.!!!

so my mama didnt wanna kill e cockroach although she has e guts n left it to me.

so i keep screaming n screaming.

i rmb crying too.

in e end she gave up on me.

cos i screamed too much.

so she killed it.

wif juz one whack.

she juz stand up from e chair.

walk towards e cockroach n gave it one whack.

n it died.

im useless la.

i was like standing there looking n following e cockroach for half an hour.

but my ma juz killed it so easily.

y is she so fearless.

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{beautiful lady}

21:40

y muz i do all e stuff for him.

he juz throw his temper ard n u get it done for him.

when i throw mine.

i get scolded.

y??

i wonder.

y can't he juz do e stuff himself.

y muz we do it for him.

who e hell is he la.

his juz of a different sex.

y e hell does he receive such a big difference in treatment from me.

u pple r such craps shit.

i juz wan to be treated equally.

y e hell is there sexual discrimination.

y e hell is there a much more superior sex.

tis is such a absurb family.

i hate tis family.

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{beautiful lady}

21:39

e mother is totally horrible!!

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{beautiful lady}

5.21.2006

11:57

y do i always get treated e worst.

i need my own space.

i need to be away.

i muz not always be controlled by them.

y cant i get away from their control.

y cant i juz rebuke them.

y cant i juz leave them.

is it because of all e strings attached.

or is it because i noe tt i cannot live without them.

y am i so contradictive.

i wan to leave.

but i cannot.

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{beautiful lady}

5.20.2006

00:47

tt time i fell.

e wound still haven heal.

n e nail broke.

so it's like e flesh is exposed.

n it's super painful n sensitive la.

ewwww.

so disgusting.

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{beautiful lady}

00:27

sleep.

i need sleep.

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{beautiful lady}

00:25

i think my mobile phone bill is gonna explode.

den my phone get confiscated again.

sad la.

see e bill when it comes.

die die.

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{beautiful lady}

5.18.2006

22:04

i miss laughing like mad.

like in primary sch.

it will be my bro who make me laugh.

he will roll me up in blankets.

n tickle me till in 'beng'.

then in secondary sch.

4D, especially tong.

now in poly.

it feels as though e laughing factor has gone on to a different lvl.

i laugh alot though.

but in e past it's always e kind of laughter tt i like.

now.

it juz feel weird.

weird.

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{beautiful lady}

21:55

y am i so fat??

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{beautiful lady}

21:52

snickers chocolate bar!!

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{beautiful lady}

5.17.2006

18:27

i miss ballet.

i miss gymnastics.

i miss all e activities i always do in primary school.

where i will run n play n go crazy.

it's been such a long time since i did tt.

i miss all e hyperactivity running through my body.

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{beautiful lady}

15:20

TUB OF ICE CREAM!!

rocky road.

strawberry n cream.

chocolate.

strawberry cheesecake.

blueberry.

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{beautiful lady}

15:19

ALCOHOL!!

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{beautiful lady}

5.11.2006

21:41

still wallowing over e crashed notebook.
very tired.
dunno y.
keep gng in n out of consciousness.

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{beautiful lady}

21:37

crashed my notebook.

so damn sad la.

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{beautiful lady}

5.09.2006

20:45

in e end.

i didnt go for tkd.

think im gonna get a hell of a scolding nxt week.

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{beautiful lady}

20:40

i was walking down e stairs.

i balnked out la.

den i almost fell down e long long flight of stairs.

lucky my soul came back.

or i could most probrably be in e hospital.

half paralysed.

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{beautiful lady}

20:20

if u dislike me gng out with my frens to study n stopping me from participating in sch events.

y e heck did u let me go to sch?

u could have juz let me stay at home all day long n learn how to sew, iron, cook, mop, sweep.

everything.

u could have juz let me become one of those womanfolk in e countryside in third-world countries.

u could have stopped me from becoming a multi-talented lady.

then u dun need to be so vexed everyday.

once i get married.

i'll juz only be bullied by my chauvinistic n egoistical husband.

u evil freaking ass of a person.

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{beautiful lady}

20:18

D'Lite frozen yogurt in strawberry.

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{beautiful lady}

18:54

should i go for tkd today?

very sianz leh.

but i haven learn my pattern yet.

sianz la.

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{beautiful lady}

16:12

daddy called me stupid in school today.

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{beautiful lady}

09:36

MACDONALD'S BREAKFAST!!

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{beautiful lady}

09:31

EG1 is boring.

so sianz.

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{beautiful lady}

5.08.2006

23:09

a sudden desire for desserts.

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{beautiful lady}

21:31

MACDONALD'S FRENCH FRIES!!

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{beautiful lady}

18:42

Midori Huang --

[noun]:

A real life muppet

'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

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{beautiful lady}

15:10

CADBURY CHOCLATES!!

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{beautiful lady}

5.07.2006

23:50

one whole watermelon

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{beautiful lady}

22:56

i realised something today.

mopping e floor is bad for e hands.

e abrasion between e mop stick n hand causes e hand to be very dry.

my hand is like super dry n rough now.

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{beautiful lady}

00:36

ONE NIGHT STAND!!

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{beautiful lady}

5.06.2006

02:56

i saw addy today!!

it's like forever since i saw her.

pple say she grew fatter.

but i said "did u??"

u dun at all la.

n i hugged joyce.

long long time since then la.

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{beautiful lady}

5.05.2006

22:52

OB trining is so tough la.

then had to rush for tkd aft tt.

so damn freaking tired.

my legs are almost like jelly.

they r sore.

run big big circle from e sports complex to blk 73.

how much can i last under tis.?

it's like yrs since i ran so much!

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{beautiful lady}

15:11

i gt a daddy n mummy in sch.

so happy.

gt pple to protect me in sch now.

HAHA!!

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{beautiful lady}

5.04.2006

21:34

am i very cartoon?

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{beautiful lady}

19:08

everyday u juz freaking show me e damned fucked up face.

i listen to u all e time.

but no matter wat u juz show e face like its my fault.

im like so damn freaking tired everyday n u juz cannot show me a face to welcome me home.

its almost like tis aint my home.

n im intruding.

if its like tt y dun u juz tell me.

i can leave u noe.

juz walk out.

i dun mind.

i can stay somewhere else.

n juz freaking leave u alone.

i make it a muz to at least say tt im back n show u a happy face.

but u dun even respond.

u juz sit there continuing ur own stuff n totally ignoring me like im totally invisble.

y cant u freaking juz care once abt me.

when i complain to u it means tt i wan u to care.

but u dun even care.

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{beautiful lady}

10:51

i had a bad dream last nite.

i dreamt tt four of my teeth gt knocked out.

n it's e front ones.

arghhhh.

so scary la.

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{beautiful lady}

5.03.2006

17:30

nothing to do in sch.
so some crap.

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{beautiful lady}

5.02.2006

21:59

i realised tt im not hugging pple as much as in secondary sch.

i miss all e hugs n warmth.

i miss hugs la.

all e squeeze squeeze.

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{beautiful lady}

5.01.2006

21:16

so tired.
my normal sleeping hours r like 8 to 10 hrs.
i only slept for 6 hrs la.
so lethargic .

i wan to oink oink.

gt scolded at my gran gran house again.

for wearing fbt shorts.

wat e hell is wrong wif fbt shorts.

im not even showing my butt.

y muz u keep blaming my mum.

u r totally worser then my mama.

u juz keep on nagging n nagging all these shit.

it's like constantly flowing from ur mouth non stop.

maybe i should get u a plug.

stop u from speaking all these nonsense.

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{beautiful lady}