LOVE is so meaningless.

2008-05-03T17:44:00.001+08:00

2008-05-03T00:14:00.002+08:00

i'm slowly learning to tell people stuff about myself.
first step to trusting people by telling them my secrets and my weaknesses.
soon, midori will leave this depressing side of herself far away.
but will she ever be happy?

2008-05-01T00:09:00.002+08:00

i don't know how to respond when he comes up on me so viciously.
it scares me.
i'm tired to actually argue with him.
so, i keep quiet.
and he thinks it's because i'm speechless.
it's just that i want him to leave, and stop scrutinizing me.
i'm not some prisoner.
i just want to do stuff my own way.
why does he have to care about every single thing, i also don't ask you about everything.
control everything that you do.
force you to stop doing something.
can you hurry up and go already.

2008-04-30T23:21:00.002+08:00

it's been some time since i last wrote something.
but after much pondering.
i came up with a conclusiona about myself.
i'm a selfish, self-centered bitch.

2008-04-18T21:36:00.002+08:00

okay.
i may have disappeared for some time.
it's because i was rather lazy.
and down with some horrible illness.
anyways.

1st day of school was alright.
although i was sick.
at least i knew some people from class.
and not some random asshole.
cca fiesta-ed.
to be honest.
i didn't really promote NPOB much.
due to me being unwell and all.
i just went around and said random hi to people whom i knew.
decided to leave at 5 plus, because i really couldn't take the noise there, it was making my migraine worse by the second.
went across the bridge and took a cab.
lincoln saw me and i gave him a free ride.
to my place.
and he walked back.
the doctor must be some retarded shit, apparently, he can't see that i have a sore throat and migraine.
he didn't even give me any lozenges for my sore throat or any tablets for my migraine.

2nd day of school was worse.
i didn't even make it out of bed.
i couldn't even pull myself up.

i'm well now.
i think.
except i have a rather sexy voice now.
and the lecturer took my voice for a guy whilst taking attendance.
which is uber sad.

2008-04-04T18:58:00.001+08:00

okay.
i remembered something about the xiamen trip.
peiyi said i have alot of actions when i'm sleeping.
i talk.
i grind my teeth.
i swallow alot.
and i snore slightly.
hahaha.
UNGLAMOROUS!!!

2008-04-04T15:46:00.000+08:00

Cyanide & Happiness @

this is so rubbish.

2008-04-01T20:43:00.002+08:00

the last time i actually posted anything was last month.
hhahaha.
so busy recently.
with fop.
leaders' camp.
games leadership.
games tryout.
school's starting soon.
i don't think i know anyone in my new class.
which is uber sad.
it's like starting first year all over again.
hope people will be nice.

2008-03-21T01:47:00.001+08:00

it's really tiring.
i don't know why.
i feel much more energetic in China then when i'm at home.
i hardly speak as much as i do.
i want more people around me.
it's boring to lead a life where there's hardly 5 people around you.

2008-03-18T20:46:00.003+08:00

BACK FROM XIAMEN!!!!!!
totally knocked out and i don't know why.
slept all the way till 3 in the afternoon.
amazing right?
i don't know why.
had loads of fun.
and it was really cold.
but as days passed, it grew warmer and the layers of clothes lessen.
built the incinerator.
made many friends.
had eggs for every meal.
drank loads.
ugly beer belly.
friendly people everywhere.
scandal scandal!!!
missed everybody now.

2008-02-12T20:08:00.000+08:00

went house visiting over the cny period.
wenting's.
grace's.
etcetera.
many many people.
it was like a gambling den at every house.
everyone wanted to get some luck over the chinese new year period.
midori lost alot.
hahhahha.
and i also took alot of cab.
no more moolah.
);

2008-02-11T23:32:00.000+08:00

migraine keeps coming back and leaving.
it's as though there's a lever for it to switch sides.
the migraine keeps going from left to right and right to left.
it hurts so bad.

2008-02-07T04:11:00.001+08:00

it's 4 hours into the new year and i've cried so much.
swollen eyes.
heavy head.
sore throat.
stuffed nose.
everything.
);

2008-02-05T19:23:00.001+08:00

saw them 2 weeks ago.
missed them loads.

2008-02-05T00:44:00.000+08:00

my green bean plant grew so tall.
C;

2008-02-04T01:13:00.000+08:00

i'm actually afraid of time.
because as time passes, we actually lose our love ones just like that.
but without parting, we won't be able to actually treasure them as much.
i'll miss them.
loads.
past year events have really really bonded us so closely we're like atoms and molecules of NPOB.
i really hate endings.
i don't like new changes.
i hope not to go through this again.
it's not a very nice process.
i'll miss them all.
wenting.
farand.
kelvin.
datou.
joe.
kok koung.
yongjie.
syafiq.
christina.
kaihoow.
yingjia.
grace.
xinyi.
junwei.
benjamin.
and many other people.
it's really hard not to remember them.
teasing.
jokes.
laughter.
helping hand.
etcetera.
i really hope they won't forget me, i'll never forget them.
as i'm the best choice to forget, the one who's always left out and everything.

2008-01-31T01:16:00.000+08:00

oh so cute.
which do you prefer?

2008-01-30T23:44:00.000+08:00

i donated blood.
i cried.
cause i'm scared.
but still, i'm happy that i donated blood.
i helped save lives.

2008-01-29T23:35:00.000+08:00

midori can sometimes be so lazy she don't even bathe until someone in the family forces her into the toilet and makes sure she bathe before letting her out.
that was years ago when midori was not very fond of baths.

2008-01-29T23:29:00.000+08:00

oh so funny.

2008-01-29T23:25:00.000+08:00

midori thinks everybody loves her.

2008-01-28T18:07:00.000+08:00

-Heath Ledger's missed-

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

-a short part of "10 things i hate about you" the best movie by him ever-

2008-01-27T17:50:00.000+08:00

apparently, everything wrong that happens around my house is MY FAULT!!
i know this seems childish.
but i'm tired.
really very tired.

2008-01-27T01:05:00.000+08:00

everybody must listen to MIDORI!
or experience the wrath of midori.
MUHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

damn.
i must be so damn bored to even post something like that.
exams are pressing on like nobody's business.
am lazy to even study.
someone!! make me study.
please.
i can't afford to fail at all.
it's will not be very good to fail.
and i don't want to not graduate with the rest of my friends.

2008-01-25T00:57:00.000+08:00

i almost fell down the escalator somehow.
i was taking a step when i reached the top of the escalator, and somehow i lost balance.
totally freaked out.
luckily i can balance myself somehow and i didn't fall all the way down.
and everybody was like staring at me because i shouted 'woah!' so loudly.
ahhhahaaahha.

2008-01-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

midori's a spoilt brat.

2008-01-21T23:40:00.000+08:00

line for OB's future members.
"where guys and girls become confused "
"you touch my breasts, i kick/whack your balls"

2008-01-21T21:47:00.000+08:00

i cried, screamed and jumped today once i reached home.
i was bringing in the laundry today.
and a lizard jumped down on me.
like, it's so disgusting.
i cried and cried.
ewwwww.
disgusting.
and it's so scary!!

2008-01-20T20:39:00.000+08:00

shujuan, weilson, weikai and some other people really have nothing better to do.

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(*)midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:24 PM):
were you there when they were prank calling people yesterday night?
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:24 PM):
I was 80%-asleep
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:25 PM):
wanted to tell them to shut up
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:25 PM):
but couldnt
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:25 PM):
i scolded vulgarities
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:25 PM):
hahaa
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:25 PM):
and my mum scolded me for using so many vulgarities
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:25 PM):
yeah
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:26 PM):
kinda scary hearing all that you know
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:26 PM):
hhahahahaha
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:26 PM):
please im asleep la
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:26 PM):
ahahhaha
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:26 PM):
and it's freaking 3am
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:26 PM):
yeah I know
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:26 PM):
but anw
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:27 PM):
as scary as it was, it was the only funny thing of the day really, hearing you
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:27 PM):
ass
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:27 PM):
hahhahahha
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:27 PM):
my mum was like
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:27 PM):
just hang up on them
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:27 PM):
and stop using all the vulgarities
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:27 PM):
hahahha
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:32 PM):
I half wanted to get up and smack shujuan and weilson

mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:32 PM):

HAHAHaHaHA
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:33 PM):
because of me?
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:33 PM):
));
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:33 PM):
in general la
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:33 PM):
they called like4 or 5 people
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:33 PM):
i know
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:37 PM):
dongyang was the most subtle one
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:37 PM):
hahah
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:38 PM):
of course
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:38 PM):
he doesnt lose his temper
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:39 PM):
cuase he doesnt have one
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:39 PM):
or rather
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:39 PM):
his is a diff kind
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:39 PM):
i would be too
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:40 PM):
but i really have to wake up super early for tkd the next day
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:41 PM):
you know what you should do?
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:41 PM):
like really?
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:41 PM):
what?
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:41 PM):
call them all tonight at 4?
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:41 PM):
hahhaha
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:42 PM):
LOL. no
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:42 PM):
you can try ignoring them or pretend to be mad at them and don't talk to them the whole week

mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:42 PM):

HAHAHA. that would be funny huh.
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:42 PM):
but i went to school today
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:42 PM):
and met them
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:42 PM):
after class
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:42 PM):
ahhahaha
(*) midori (L)WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (8:42 PM):
and im not so evil as to ignore people
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:43 PM):
=.=
mirza.... forgettable huh says (8:43 PM):
hahha. fine then

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2008-01-14T22:35:00.000+08:00

receiving a email about guy girl relationship stuff.
even though it could be the same stuff everytime.
but the person on your mind could be every-changing.
so infatuation could be like this.

2008-01-14T22:07:00.000+08:00

cried all the way home today.
just whenever i think about stuff.
and tears just keep on welling up in my eyes.
rolling down my cheeks.
i should learn to not cry in public anymore.
it's tiring and humiliating.

2008-01-13T02:11:00.000+08:00

this is so rubbish
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(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:37 AM):
pregnancy test
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:37 AM):
why never use sperm count test
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:37 AM):
hahahahhaa
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:37 AM):
no need count
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:37 AM):
at least 2 billion
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:38 AM):
really
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:39 AM):
rubbish
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:39 AM):
i wont believe you
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:39 AM):
ahhahahhahah
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:39 AM):
lol
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:39 AM):
im normal
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:39 AM):
so sure will hav 2 billion
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:39 AM):
haha
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:39 AM):
who's abnormal then?
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:40 AM):
above average?
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:40 AM):
below average?
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:41 AM):
abnormal arh
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:41 AM):
derrick
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:41 AM):
lol
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:41 AM):
low sperm count
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:41 AM):
haha!
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:42 AM):
see la ur fault..nvr help him take care of his balls
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:44 AM):
hahahhaha
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:44 AM):
my fault
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:44 AM):
not my fault he's not so good la
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:45 AM):
yeah pity derrick is not gd in bed
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:45 AM):
if not he will suit u well rite
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:45 AM):
haha
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:47 AM):
hhahahaha
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:47 AM):
damn im hungry
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:48 AM):
i ate alot
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:48 AM):
so i dont think i need so much food
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:48 AM):
hahahahha
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:48 AM):
erm
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:48 AM):
eat yourself
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:48 AM):
ahhahahaha
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:48 AM):
ling ling ling
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:48 AM):
midori dun so high
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:48 AM):
derrick is not here
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:48 AM):
or is he
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:48 AM):
hes at ur place rite
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:48 AM):
lol
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:49 AM):
(chokes on breathe)
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:49 AM):
how'd you know
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:49 AM):
hhahahhahaa
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:49 AM):
he left already
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:49 AM):
to not be caught by anyone
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:49 AM):
omg!
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:50 AM):
you're not supposed to know about it
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:50 AM):
erase your memory
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:50 AM):
rub rub rub rub rub rub rub
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:50 AM):
nonono u cannot erase it
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:50 AM):
i already put a mini cam on derrick's penis
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:50 AM):
erase erase erase
clement ; i want... to learn how to solve last layer on the rubik's cube says (1:50 AM):
who ask him to be naked too fast
(*) midori WINIFRED(*) DIAMONDS are MY best friends. says (1:50 AM):
erase erase erase erase erase
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2008-01-13T01:53:00.000+08:00

i'm out of scandal week!!
yipee!!

2008-01-12T21:10:00.001+08:00

i got jacqueline's first kiss.
and a kiss from shujuan too.
ahahha.
on the lips.
guys, you must be damn jealous.
ahahhaha.

2008-01-12T17:14:00.000+08:00

fell down so many times yesterday!
so embarrassing.
just because it was raining and the floor was slippery.
midori fell so many times!!!!
must have been a bad day for midori.

2008-01-11T00:06:00.000+08:00

i don't like scandals.
i prefer to be the subtle one.
the one no one notices.

2008-01-10T21:07:00.000+08:00

Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.
see, so people, you can't always stop me from laughing.

2008-01-05T11:28:00.000+08:00

Midori- needless to say, she was so high, so funny and full of energy man. I really like her energy level and she isn’t that heavy coz I carried her. she is such a photogenic in a big time

As for helper wise, I get to know Midori, as in I know she exist but I never really talked to her. She is damn enthu and yeah I got to agree she is photogenic.

taken from hafiz's blog.

apparently, i'm photogenic. hahhaha. makes my day. but really i think alot of my pictures are super unglam!!!
wasn't there for the climax of what's next.
very sadden-ed.
i miss sleeping in the outdoors.
the cool breeze.
the stickiness of your companions.
the rubbish mosquitoes.
the constant rolling of other companions.
sleep-talking.
sleep walking.
snoring.
screaming.

2008-01-05T11:16:00.000+08:00

Midori- needless to say, she was so high, so funny and full of energy man. I really like her energy level and she isn’t that heavy coz I carried her. she is such a photogenic in a big time

As for helper wise, I get to know Midori, as in I know she exist but I never really talked to her. She is damn enthu and yeah I got to agree she is photogenic.

taken from hafiz's blog.

apparently, i'm photogenic. hahhaha. makes my day. but really i think alot of my pictures are super unglam!!!
wasn't there for the climax of what's next.
very sadden-ed.
i miss sleeping in the outdoors.
the cool breeze.
the stickiness of your companions.
the rubbish mosquitoes.

2008-01-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

has anyone ever tried counting the number of laughs i have.

2008-01-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

today have been a very bad start for this year so far.

2008-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR
i think i will make alot of unkept new year resolutions this year
1. i need to look after myself properly.
2. i cannot always rely on people to look after me so that i will stay healthy and well always.
3. i need to eat healthy and not always rely on junk food for meals.
4. i can't always demand stuff from people and then get angry just because they won't give it to me.
5. i cannot whine so much.
6. i must try to not act so bisexual anymore.
7. i must really not be so immature sometimes.
8. i need to study and not sleep everyday in class.
9. i need to pass my driving license.
10. i really need to repay my debt.

ahhaah.
Publish Post
i'll continue when i have the free time.

2007-12-25T04:14:00.000+08:00

so many things happened.
Sun Love Camp
Unarmed Combat
Christmas BBQ
and many many stuff.
still, i have no time for some friends.
am very tired.
i want a massage.
but no one wants to give me any.
);
What's next coming,
but my laundry from Sun Love's not done yet.
yawn!

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE.
LOVE LOVE.

2007-12-13T19:06:00.000+08:00

i will do this if i don't have a fear for heights.
just looking at it freaks me out.
the height is !!!!

2007-12-13T17:58:00.000+08:00

this is crazy!

2007-12-03T18:10:00.000+08:00

tired.
see my posts are getting shorter and shorter.
and lesser and lesser.
so depressing.
);

2007-11-11T00:00:00.000+08:00

goodbye.

2007-11-08T13:50:00.001+08:00

i cut my hair again!!
hahha.
it's like chunks missing!

2007-11-05T16:33:00.001+08:00

(more)
overnight cycling.
best ass/crotch pain.
motivation.
falling.
bruise.
mosquito bites.
crazy shits.

2007-11-04T16:33:00.000+08:00

You don't have to sleep with someone to be unfaithful.
You can be unfaithful with your emotions.

2007-11-01T16:01:00.000+08:00

the stars are there, even in daylight.

2007-10-27T12:18:00.000+08:00

damn funny.

2007-10-23T16:34:00.000+08:00

somehow.
i've been so busy.
i hardly have time to update.
dead beat.
this blog is like dead.
stone-cold dead.

2007-09-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

been sick on and off.
so damn tired.
body's malfunctioning.
i need rest.
work, tkd, work, tkd.
and nothing else.

2007-09-22T22:45:00.000+08:00

i'm still peeling!!!
like after so long!!
one whole month after OBS!
who else can beat me in peeling?

2007-09-14T09:05:00.000+08:00

my result's the shitz!

2007-09-13T23:36:00.000+08:00

i'm finally peeling!!
2 weeks after OBS.

2007-09-08T19:09:00.000+08:00

i really really miss obs.
life was carefree.
burnt.
i missed everyone!!

2007-09-07T19:20:00.000+08:00

okay.

finally.
POST FOR OBS!!!!
anyway.
7 days away from singapore.
the one thing i missed most: POTATO CHIPS & full-length mirrors. (i still didn't get to eat it, cause i fell sick.)
anway.

instructor: Lu Yi Gideon

People: ME, definitely
DongYang
YuHeng
KaiHoow
Jocelyn
ShuJuan
Ian
Derrick
Samuel
Sui Chang
JiaJun
Sylverter

Okay, i miss them so much, it feels weird to not sleep in the same bunk as them.
We did so many stuff together.
cutter sailing,

kayaking expedition,
jetty jumping,
confidence jump,
high obstacles,
sleeping in tents,
sleeping in a cutter sail,
cooking,

mosquitoes,

daily journals,
bonding.

LOVES YOU PEOPLE.
(more)

2007-09-03T20:17:00.000+08:00

haven't been properly home in 10 days.
went home after seazzle and license to wed at vivo on sunday the 26th.
then slept till 6 in the morning to start packing for obs that day.
7 days away from home.
total tired-ness.
haven't been sleeping well.

2007-08-21T02:18:00.000+08:00

i need sleep.
yawn!

2007-08-19T02:37:00.000+08:00

i'm tired.
you people are being such bastards.
i need help.
i can't go to bed crying every single day.

2007-08-18T23:44:00.000+08:00

exams!!!!!

2007-08-18T20:17:00.000+08:00

i've tried to kill myself.
many times in the past few years.
and recently, it's getting more frequent.
i wish i'm still a child.

2007-08-18T20:00:00.000+08:00

i've decided to said goodbye.
goodbye to the world.
goodbye to you.
goodbye.

2007-08-15T19:08:00.000+08:00

is it wrong for females to watch porn?

2007-08-15T00:02:00.000+08:00

he made me drink black beer.
damn disgusting.
tian.
i puked out the whole cup.
*puke*

2007-08-14T23:35:00.000+08:00

i'm afraid.
i don't think i can survive that long.
that long to see you appear.

2007-08-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

i'm afraid to love.
to love & get it broken.

2007-08-11T22:03:00.000+08:00

was it really a hug?
a innocent hug?
or something more?

2007-08-11T19:29:00.000+08:00

fatty me.
):

2007-08-11T15:47:00.000+08:00

is it wrong to think like this?

2007-08-09T02:12:00.000+08:00

i'm hungry!!!
bloody-hell hungry!!
damnit.

2007-08-08T18:31:00.000+08:00

i just have to be more independent.
then maybe, i won't cry as much as i do now.

2007-08-04T21:12:00.000+08:00

i'm counting the days till i leave.
this is frustrating.

2007-08-01T23:26:00.001+08:00

i such a slut.
i should just be a prostitute.

2007-08-01T23:07:00.000+08:00

4D gathering.
everyone's the same.
being with the people who were so nice and wonderful.
i miss being 16.
it's just so much more carefree.

(4D loves)

2007-08-01T22:57:00.000+08:00

what if i become emo shit?
and do all the emo stuff.
wearing black.
slitting my wrist.
growing long black hair that covers my whole face.
having no friends.
depression.
somehow it seems that i'm doing a lot of such recently.
except i don't inflict wounds upon myself.
i want people to shower care an d concern on me.
making me feel accepted.
it seems as though i'm not wanted.
i'm all alone to battle the evil forces of the world.

2007-07-30T18:30:00.000+08:00

what if i end up here???
):

2007-07-27T14:07:00.000+08:00

haven't gotten well for a very long time.
wireless crappy.
sleeping hours messed up.
many people's birthday.
passed as if i don't really care.
am so tired.
finished harry potter like long long time ago.
and since saturday.
i've finished harry potter.
a chinese novel.
meg cabot's haunted.
meg cabot's ready or not.
am halfway through harry potter again.
scratched it.
damn sad.
haven't trained in a very long time.
getting fat.
damn fat.
reaching another level of obesity.
):
all i'm doing now seems to be reading, sleeping and eating.
):
so damn fat.
i need to get my active life back.
i miss ob.
i miss the lime green shirts.
i miss the long running distance.
i miss everything.
my running's getting from bad to worse.
stamina is weakening.
):

2007-07-23T18:05:00.000+08:00

love me, love me not.

2007-07-18T23:12:00.000+08:00

so tired.
heavy eye-bags.
sneeze-y nose.
):

2007-07-11T15:50:00.000+08:00

2007-07-09T20:40:00.005+08:00

saw these while browsing through the desktop.
those days were great.
sleeping was practically nought.
but we had the time of our lives.
making such wonderful company.
sep '06

2007-07-09T20:07:00.000+08:00

ran.
again!!
how long will i really sustain this running enthusiasm?
i don't know.
maybe a week?
a year?
1 day?
till i get my desired body shape.
haha.

2007-07-09T20:04:00.000+08:00

i can't stop people from avoiding me if they don't like the way i think and do stuff.
it's just that they'll lose a friend.
and i'll be that friend.

2007-07-08T21:08:00.000+08:00

----------------------
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
eh
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
i9 ask u a question
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
does my sister act cute?
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
bleah
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
all the time right?
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
no i dont
VaNqUsH says:
YES
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
whatever
VaNqUsH says:
an she aint cute
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
bloody fucking irritating correct?
VaNqUsH says:
oppss. shes here?
VaNqUsH says:
OMG>>..
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
just say the truth
VaNqUsH says:
but its true
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
hmph
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
and whatever is very ATTITUDE PROBLEM,, correct?
VaNqUsH says:
sometimes people might find it irratating
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
goodbye
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
understand now midori, its not just me
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
its for your own good
VaNqUsH says:
ur brother is right
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
you're 18 already. time to stop the "act cute" phase
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
i so dont act cute
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
else you'll forever treated as a kid
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
act cutes are for bimbos
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
only
VaNqUsH says:
u did
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
and when people try to talk to you, sincerely listen to the comments
VaNqUsH says:
esp. with ur friends
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
and you'll be treated like an adult
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
and you'll get your freedom
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
you still wanna behave like how a kid behaves, then you will never gain people's trust to let you have more freedom
VaNqUsH says:
act cute when ur sec sch is ok..
now ur poly.. yeah please grow up if not no one will take u seriously
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
yeah
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
nobody will take you seriously
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
the problem is: i dont act cute
VaNqUsH says:
ok.. then
VaNqUsH says:
u have to change ur charater
VaNqUsH says:
maybe think before u talk
VaNqUsH says:
see how does an adult talk and u follow
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
and you still wanna argue
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
then life will be boring
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
imagine monotonous talking
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:

it's pure boredom
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
when you're treated like an adult, your will open your eyese to a bigger world
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
you will hvae responsibilities
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
trust us
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:

okay
Qixiang Conspiracy (Blocked) says:
our lives aint boring
midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
i will.

midori akha I LOVE WINIFRED!!! says:
i think it is

----------------------

he says i act cute.

which i totally don't.

right?

2007-07-07T19:34:00.000+08:00

ran.
all the way to tanglin sec!!
i'm so impressed with myself!!!
hahhaha.
and i walk the stairs home.
instead of taking the lift!!
19 stories!!
impressive right?
i know.

2007-07-07T19:08:00.000+08:00

...---...

live earth.

wear green.

2007-07-06T19:40:00.000+08:00

sick.
again.
i know.
so weak.
sighs.

2007-07-01T15:27:00.000+08:00

results were damn bad.

reflected all my 'hard-work'.

failed so many.

passed so few.

i need to buck up.

but not much motivation present.

i must work harder!

if i can.

2007-06-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

ob.
like finally.
hahahha.
muscle aches.
damn tired.

2007-06-24T17:21:00.000+08:00

will i get grapes if i soak raisins in water?

2007-06-22T12:30:00.000+08:00

donut factory again!!
hahhaa.
madness.
4 hours yesterday.
2 hours on saturday.
24 doughnuts in total.
but i cannot finish all of them today.
fat.
look at that spare tyre around me.
);

2007-06-19T14:44:00.001+08:00

GEC was great.
although the group's abit crappy.
and plays too much.
we finished our prototype and business plan within 3 hours.
damn.
we're fast.
other groups took hours and hardly slept.
hhahahha.
citizen chimpy.

2007-06-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

2007-06-14T13:16:00.000+08:00

y2y.
many sports camp GLs.
2/3 infiltration.
red shirts.
isolation.
bonding?

2007-06-13T03:13:00.000+08:00

You Are 44% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.

You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

Your Waist to Hip Ratio is 0.8

You are quite curvy. Most clothes look great on you.

How Curvy Are You?

Your IQ Is 90

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Average

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional

Your General Knowledge is Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

Your Life is 50% Perfect

Your life is pretty normal - sometimes great, sometimes not so great.
You have a lot of good stuff going on. Your life may be more perfect than you realize.

How Perfect is Your Life?

All American Kid

Popular but not plastic. Athletic but not a jock. Smart but not a brain.

You were well rounded and well liked in high school.

Who Were You In High School?

You Are Jennifer Aniston

Girl next door with a free spirit.
You're low key and naturally sexy.
Sweet and approachable, people are attracted to your upbeat attitude.
And even when life doesn't go your way, you always eventually turn things around.

Are You More Like Jennifer or Angelina?

Your Body Image is 48% Unhealthy, 52% Healthy

You may think you have a normal body image, but you definitely don't.
While you may not have a serious problem, you obsess over your looks way too much.

How's Your Body Image?

You Are Smokin' Hot

You're a terrible flirt, a sharp dresser, and a party animal.
Of course, you're totally sizzling too. And for you, being hot just comes naturally.

Are You Hot?

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Score: 56%

Your Intrapersonal Intelligence is Average

You have a pretty good awareness of who you are, but you occasionally surprise yourself.
There's a lot about your own psychology that you can figure out.
Consider starting a journal or writing poetry. There's a much deeper side of yourself that you will discover.

How Does Your Intrapersonal Intelligence Rate?

You Are 66% Pure

You're pretty pure, and you have no plans on changing that.
You do have a devilish side though... and it will probably get the better of you.

The 100 Question Purity Test

You Should Weigh 161

If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight.
If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!

How Much Do You Weigh?

Your EQ is 133

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

What Your Peanut Butter And Jelly Sandwich Means

Your eating style is gluttonous. If you like something, you're going back for seconds... no matter how full you are!

You have a total sweet tooth. When you can get away with it, you like to have dessert before dinner!

Your taste in food tends to be pretty flexible. You may crave sushi one night, and your favorite childhood recipe the next.

You're a self loathing middle class person. You act a lot classier than you are, and you secretly feel like a fraud.

You are a tough person who isn't afraid to live life fully. There isn't a lot that scares you.

You are laid back and extremely easygoing. You never make a fuss, and you try to enjoy every moment.

What Does Your Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwich Say About You?

What Your Face Says

At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced.

Overall, your true self is moody and dynamic.

With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react.

In love, you seem mysterious and interesting.

In stressful situations, you seem sad and helpless.

What Do People Think Of Your Face?

You Are an Afternoon Person

You can find energy any time of the day ... or night!
You prefer to be out and about when most other people are.
Very early mornings or very late nights aren't really your thing.
You're practically solar powered, and the afternoon is when do best.

Are You a Morning Person or Night Person?

Your Love Life is Like Titanic

"Promise me you'll survive. That you won't give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless."

You think that you only really have one true love in your life. And that you better to anything and everything to be with that person.
You tend to be very nostalgic about past loves that didn't work out. There are many secret feelings that you keep to yourself.

Your love style: Deep and emotional

Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Bittersweet

What Movie Is Your Love Life Like?

You Are Pretty Happy Being Single

You have a full, fun life. And you definitely don't need love to be content.
Of course, being single can get you down a little. Especially when you've been single for a while.
But you know how to be patient and wait for the right person. You're life is too good to settle for anything!

Are You Happy Being Single?

Your Wrestler Name Is...

Foxxy Sass

What's Your Wrestler Name?

You Should Date An Italian!

You love for old fashioned romance, with an old fashioned guy
An Italian guy is the perfect candidate to be your prince charming
If your head doesn't spin enough, just down another espresso with him
Invest in a motorcycle helmet - and some carb blocker for all that pasta!

Which Foreign Guy Should You Date?

You Are Most Like Gisele Bundchen

Slightly exotic and perfectly gorgeous

Which Victoria's Secret Angel Are You?

What Midori Means

M is for Mystical

I is for Impressive

D is for Devious

O is for Orderly

R is for Radiant

I is for Industrious

What Does Your Name Mean?

Your Reputation Is: Shy Girl

You've done pretty well in keeping your reputation protected..
Problem is, no one really knows who you are!

Do You Have A Bad Girl Reputation?

You Are a Bad Girl

You are 30% Good and 70% Bad
You're a total bad girl, from your wild hair to tattooed toes.
But you're too badass to even care if you're labeled "bad"!

Are You a Good Girl or a Bad Girl?

You Are 36% Spoiled

You're barely spoiled. You may have some nice things, but you never let them go to your head.

You appreciate each gift you're given - and you don't dwell on what you "deserve" to have.

Are You Spoiled?

2007-06-12T23:57:00.001+08:00

reine's birthday!!

2007-06-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

a friend asked me this recently.
"Are you homosexual?"
and
"Are you bisexual?"
honestly.
i don't know.
i really don't know.